12.54am:
kel "grandma no more le"

=_(



bye grandma..





life is so fragile.. lately, kel's extended family has been really down in luck.. first, his uncle was involved n an accident arnd christmas. Then, this cousin was hospitalised after being knocked by a bicycle while jogging. Then, another uncle of his passed away.. now, this grandma is in critical condition in the hospital..

we were notified only yesterday.. while shopping at parkway, he received a call from this mom, saying that grandma might pass away soon. we dropped everything and headed towards the hospital.. it was a tough decision on whether i should be there.. i wanted to be there for kel as i knew he was close to his grandma... most imptly, grandma has asked kel to bring me to meet her only recently.. everything has happened too suddenly.. somehow i felt that i wanted to meet her too... kel was concerned i'll feel out of place since all his maternal relatives would be present.. its not exactly a good time to meet his relatives.. he was also worried my mum wldn like it.. but i knew he wanted to bring me there.. eventually, we went..

it was a heart wrenching sight.. the amount of tubes being stuck into her.. to help her breathe.. to lessen her pain.. it looked so painful.. when we reached, her kidney has already failed and the doctors were doing a "blood change" thing for her.. after they were done, kel and i went to see her in the ICU.. she seemed to be unconscious.. but i somehow felt she knew we were there.. we called out to her but there was no response.. kel told her he had brought his gf to see her.. i held her hand.. they were so cold.. so stiff.. it made me tear.. it was really heart wrenching.. it seemed that she wasn't really happy staying where she stayed.. but yet she showered so much care on those grandchildren she stayed with..

as kel and i left the hospital, we glanced at The Pinnacles.. Suddenly all these seem meaningless.. money, branded bags, good food, nice house, fast cars, pretty clothes.. meaningless..

otw home, kel was obviously distraught.. from him, i learnt that his grandma was a cool grandma.. she watches ESPN and discusses players and matches with kel.. she watches wrestling matches even! and since thats one of kel's favourite, they have pretty much in common..

heard from kel she had a heart attack in the hospital this afternoon.. originally, her chances of recovery was 30%.. after the attack, probably 0.01%.. she probably wouldn last the night. giving her max till tml morning..

life is so fragile.. one moment we're there, another moment we're gone..
"I'm a conscious being existing in what I know of as reality."
perphaps one day we'll wake up and realize that what we know of as life so far is but a dream.

Its less than a month to Chinese New Year and also less than a month to grandma's birthday.. i really want her to pull through.. i really regret not meeting her sooner.. but even kel's mum said with tears rolling down, "might be better that she leaves.. she's in so much pain.. and she isn't even happy living where she is.." perphaps..

ironically, the SICU and the labor wards are placed on the same floor, just a turn / corner away from each other.. at the labor ward's corridor, the ambiance is so different from that a turn away.. on one side, people arrive to welcoming arms.. on the other, people depart, letting go of their lives.. its a mini airport..

seeing how kel's siblings rally arnd their mum during tough times made me realise how important it is to have children. but when i think about how some of kel's uncles and aunts treat his grandma, i think to myself "who needs enemies when u have kids?" and i kill the thought of having children again..

if you knew you only have 24hrs more to live, would you be doing what you are doing right now? if not, its time to do something about it..





Its been a long time since I last blogged. So much as happened since then..

Too many pics for the BKK trip so I shan't post them up.. Christmas was spent at District 10 Bistro. Ambiance was pretty good. Somehow we were offered the sofa seats. There were only 2 tables with sofa seats. Each table can sit 4-6 pax so it was kind of wasted on us but it wasn't like they were packed to the brim so.. anw, dinner was alright.. its supposed to be a drinking/chill out place and food is just an after thought. So when they came out with the xmas menu we should have thought twice before ordering. Every course had an item we abhored (amazing).. But overall it was good. There was a tv right in front of us. With food, TV and good company; what's not to like?

We both didn't have time to get each other's xmas prezzie so we went vivo together after work one day and decided to shop seperately. I wanted to get him a nice pen but he already knew about it so I wanted to change my mind but didn't know what to get him.. The first shop I stepped into however, helped me decide. I stepped into city chain. I've gotten him a watch before already.. But the moment my eyes landed on this Nautica model, I KNEW it was THE ONE. It was a tad expensive but I knew he'll love it. Imagine his shock when he found the receipt by accident (wanted to redeem credits for free parking so had to submit receipt at booth. when counter girl saw the amount she raised an eyebrow 'whoa... xmas present ah?' that got kel suspicious of the actual amount spent -_-) ..


(me brandishing the penknife meant for opening prezzie ONLY)





He on the other hand, gave me 2 things. A musical box and a digital photo frame with a mem card with pics of us. Yes, I like useful (but thoughtful) gifts. I guess kel isn't dense enough to give me wine glass, ironing board, steak knifes for special occasions so I dared to venture into saying I like useful but thoughtful gifts.

Boxing day dinner was spent at a place I've been wanting to check out for AGES.. Serenity Spanish Bar & Restaurant @ Vivo. We picked an indoor table but the waiter heard us wrong (or at his own discretion) served us a table thats.. um.. technically indoor but with no air con; with sea view.. Anyway, we had their national dish of cos. It was FABULASO! Drinks wise, their spanish coffee with some liquor thingy sucks.. dun ever try it.. very alcoholic yes but didn go well with the coffee.. wrong choice of liquor perphaps.. they didn have nice beers either so drinks wise was quite a disappointment. But they have a great live band =) oh yes.. and super comfy seats.. *dreaming* i had lots of fun taking pics of the coffee thing though.. will post pics up on FB instead.. Blogger's too slow..



New Year Eve was spent at Keppel Marina. We've decided to spend all our NYEs at Keppel Marina from now on since we had such a great time last year. This year was no exception. Last year was at TCC and nearing 12am we walked out to view fireworks from all 3 locations. This year, we decided to spend it at Prive. It was our 2nd time there. But our 1st time was for drinks only. Their NYE menu was pretty good. I didn take much pics of the food cos it was quite dark. And for another reason: I was a little shy cos even before I whipped out my camera, some people were staring at us for no apparant reason. It was just plain weird. Managed to take 2 pics of food. ONLY. *sad* =( however, i have to say their food is really good. We had beef cheek and lobster for mains. can't really remember the appetiser.. i only remembered its good. haha.. kel had their mushroom soup and it was good too.. later we changed to a more private seat with a much better view. Then, I whipped out my cam to take pics of drinks and the view.









Lastly, the most important thing i want to blog about is... my trip to YANGTZE! I'm sure it would interest Audrey so I have have have to blog about it! BUT its getting late and I really have to go slp so I wld blog about it another day. =) The christmas pics kel and i compiled for Audrey will appear in the nxt blog post too.. ;)