its so unfair.. i know i sound like some whiny spoilt brat.. but.. its really unfair... double standards i wld call it.. coming from someone i didn expect.. but mum's right.. yi ge ren, liang tiao xin = very normal.. i guess he isn't wrong too but it really hurt me very deeply.. very very deeply.. esp he knows how i struggle so hard for every case i have on hand.. and i dun just deal w my cases as it shld be.. i do my cases with my heart.. i really put in my feelings for each of my cases.. i try to hard to do my best because i feel for them.. but when they not only dun turn out well but turns back to bite me, i was asked not to react.. i was asked not to retaliate by the person i totally completely trusted.. he watched me struggle he watched me wk till the wee hours in the morning all for that paltry sum and for really sincerely wanting the best for my clients... yet he told me not to NOT TO retaliate.. it hurts.. to protect his interest and some of his relation's interest, he chose to sacrifice me..

it hurts... maybe i shld nva have put in my heart for work.. maybe i shld be like many many jaded, unfeeling advisors out there.. just do ur wk as it shld be done.. but then, that would defeat the main purpose why i joined an IFA.. why do i try cases that others shun? why do i bother to visit my client more times than necessary? in my line, its a thin line of difference btwn being an advisor and simply a saleswoman.. many sales ppl don the exterior of an advisor and do hard core selling. and they are happy. because their heart isn't there. they sell, get money and are happy.. maybe i'm too idealistic.. i shld just do big cases, not small ones. do easy cases not those tough ones even those tough ones are those who really NEED us as they have some forms of preexisting conditions or they really need to learn to handle finances, etc...

i'm disappointed.. very... and tired too.. its not fair... all these underhand dealings are making me very upset..

they can push me arnd.. but they wldn get rid of me.. as long as one client, just one.. still think that what i do means something to them, i wld stay.. i wld..