haD bf w mAt @ cArl's jUnior


& dId sOme sHopping (neW bLack tUbe dRess!)..



haVen sEen heR fOr sO lonG..


aT niGht, wE vIsitEd tHe mUseum fOr tHis opeN aIR tHeatre tHing..




bEfore tHe sHow sTarted wE haD aN hOur plUs tO sPare.. so wE weNt tO tHe fRee gAllaRies in tHe mUseuM tO wALk aRound.. it wAS dAmn fUn!






wE cAMe tO tHIs hisTory of fAshion gAllery wHere tHEre weRe sEats tHat lOoks liKe sOme dIsplaY wIndow, jUst thAt tHere's nO gLass pAne.. sO wE went cRazy (or aT leaSt i wEnt cRAzy & maDe bOth of tHem craZy tOo) & sTarted tAking lOts & lOts of picS oN tHe sEAts prEteNding tO be mAnnequins & tAking fUnny sHots..




tHis mUst be mY fAv..

this is a close sEcond..

it wAsn vEry cRowded.. only about 2 or 3 ppl viewing the gAllery & one oF tHEm gAve us tHe tHumbs-up... haha.. aNw tHe secUrity gUard cAme in & wE tOt we wld be tOld tO sTop climbing on tHe sEats, but nO! he tolD us tO gO aHead & continUe! haha... sIghz... wIth sCh sTarting tml, i wOnder wHen neXt will i haVE sUch a laughTer-filled ouTing..







wHy dO yOU lOve mE wHen i dUn lOve mYself mUch?

tHere aRe sO maNy tHings i wANna tell u.. bUt i dUn knOw wHere tO sTart.. tHere aRe sO mUch emOtions gOing tHru mE i dUnno how tO stArt aRranging tHem in oRder.. wHich emotions beLong tO tHe cATegory cAlled sAd? wHich eMotions bELong tO tHe cATegorY caLLed fEAr? aNd wHen tHEy aRe all jUmbleD up i cAN only sAy i'm cOnfuseD.. vERy confUsed..

aNd when i cAn't gEt wOrds ouT of mY mOuth, i fEel sO useLess i can oNLy sIt tHere aNd cRy..

aNd cRy..

aNd cRy...
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wHy dO yOU lOve mE wHen i dUn lOve mYself mUch?

wHy?






sMtG tHAt mUmmy saId laSt nIght maDe me tHink.. aNd i reALised tHat in eVeRy asPect of mY life, i've bEen a sOrt of a cOward.. i've seTTled fOr 2nD beSt wHen all i neEd waS a lAst burSt of COurage tO puSH me tO rEach wHat i wANt. i aLways gIve up.. in lOve, in aMbitions.. i aLways try sO haRd & eNd up gIving up wHen i'm sO cLose tO waT i waNt.. settling fOr 2nd bEst...

mY life is litterEd witH wASted opporTUnities..

aNd laSt nIght jUst beFOre i zzz, i sUddenly haD aN uRge tO gIVe hIm up.. i've neVer haD a gOod reCord at commitmeNts.. caLL it fEAr or aNYthing u like.. i dUn wan tO mAKe hIm unhAppy.. bUt i reALLy can't dO tHis commitmeNt tHing.. like meEting paRents, gOing tO faMily gaTherings.. sIghz.. i caN dO tHe eVent itselF... its tHe impression tHAt i'm gOing tO cHop + sTamp commit tHat i cAN't haNdle.. wHats wRong w me? :( i sUddenlY cRAve being sIngle.. aNd i haTe mYself likE tHAt.. i haTe it! i hAte it! i hAte it!

lOve is gIving someoNe tHe cHance tO hURt you, bUt tRust thAt he woulDN...






tml's mY m8 paPer... sIghz.. aNd i've not pREpared eNuf... tHankfully its aLL abouT invEstment... not tOo dif fR wHat i've sTudied in sChool.. sOme paRts aRe moRe deTailed like the rUles & reGulations, leGal sTuff.. bUt oTher paRts sEem leSS demanDing tHan wHat we lEARn in sCH.. sTill, obViously i haVEn't learnt mY leSSon aFter tHe m5 papEr -_-" wIsh me lUCk plS... i reAlly neEd it...





itS been 2mtHs pluS sInce i sTarted tHis relAtionship w kEl.. ovEr tHe paST tWo montHs i haVe tO sAY i'vE beEn mORe tHAn haPpy.. i'm gRadually feeling mOre aNd more bLesseD aNd moRE & mOre xin fu w hIm bY my sIde.. i haVe a bF wHo lOVes mE a lOT & tAkes cAre of me, i'm gRAduating in 1/2 a yEAr, i haVe a jOb aWaiting me tHat up tO now sTill intERests mE, i haVe (aHem.. loVers) fRiendS likE aUdrey wHOm i meEt leSs tHan 3 tImes a yeAR buT feel tHat tHey're aLways tHere fOr me, i havE a "pEt" tHat wouLdn dIe if nEglected fOr 1 wK, i'm rElatIvely healthy sTill, i haVe a mUmmy wHo lOves mE & a bRo wHOm i lOVe.. i haVe tO sAy, eVen thOu mY bAnk aCCount haSn beEn sHowing aNy sIgns of incRease in vAlue, i've nEver fElt rIcher & mOre bleSsed tHan nOw... haha anW i hOpe kEl dOEsn reAD tHis.. u knOw guyS, onCE tHEy THINK you're intO tHem tHey gO on aUto pilot & fORevEr & eVer u'll be sTUck w a lEss tHan niCe bf... haha.. aCtually life's sO gOod fOr me nOw i'm aFraid.. i'm aFraid of lOsin aNy paRt of it..


wHen mY fEet hUrts aFter pRancing aRound in erm.. pretty high high heels...

baBy lObsteR.. wATevER its tOpped w is FAntAstic!

Playing w fOod... :p

haPpy 2nD mTh dEAr!p/s this portion is mIne alone k?

;)






http://www.crunchyroll.com/media-100123/All-About-My-Dog-Movie.html

wAS wATching this sHow wHile haVing breakfAst.. gEe.. this sCene wHere a little boY & a liTTle gIrl exChanged a smAll pieCe of dRawing waS sO sWeet! i sTill waN lEtterS bUt i waN dRawings tOo! kEl, cAn u dRaw? haha... aNw its quiTe fUnny bUt the ending is touching.. :)

beEn sTressed lATely by thE coming guitAR & m8 exAms.. sIghz.. aNd i tot by nOt wOrking i'll hav a lOng bREAk.. sOmehow i subcoNscIously kEep piling mYself w sTuff tO dO. baD baD haBit..








went for a malay excolleague'e wedding yest.. it was interesting.. have never been to one.. kel & i used this wedding to make public our r/sp tO the eX colleaGUes aNd cLear tHings up abOut sMall cAp sTock aNd mE.. its a good thing.. but we were both very nervous.. we wonder how others would perceive us.. of cOs ppl wEre sHocked/surPrised.. tHankfully tHe nIcer aunties & uncLes weRe tHere.. nOt tHose tHat aRe knOwn tO sPread gOssip & tWist fACts...

but what came out of this eVent was e acceptance on my part that a certain friendship has soured and worn thin overtime.. its disheartening to know that when you're at your most vulnerable, ur close friend takes your problem lightly and brushes you off but when he has problems, he thinks that you should be there cos his problem is such a big issue.. i have been & i am still very willing to be there for this friend if he has problems but i feel that i'm increasingly being taken for granted.. this friendship is tiring me out.. and make things worse, i received a tongue lashing from him at night.. all along i tot he understood me.. i didn mean to allow issues to stay in the gray area. i didn have the heart to correct it & i didn know how to. he used to tell me i'm picky about guys.. i dun deny that.. den he starting calling me a flirt.. fine i can live with it.. and now he used the word slutty.. this coming from a close friend really hurts. randomly dating around does not make me a flirt. even if he wants to brand my behavior as being flirty i can live with it.. its not like i went out of my way to seduce guys to date me.. please.. i have better things to do.. but slut is a very strong word... i date around, not sleep around.. label me picky or a flirt if u must stick labels on me but i can't accept "slut". where did my old supportive friend go? perphaps he still cared.. else he wouldn have called back to ask how things went.. but it didn give me comfort that he labelled me thus.. he wasn the only one who felt disappointment in our friendship.. sIghz.. kel made me promise not to think too much... i can't hlp it.. he doesn know abOut this naMe calling thing.. oNe dAy intO hiS 1 wK reServisT & i miss him alReady..
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aNw enouGh aBout unhappY sTuff.. dunnO y i'm blogging about eVerything except the hokkAido tRip.. maybe laTer... i'm tOo hAppy w mY nEw hEels & oUr nEw cOuple sLippErs! haha.. neVer haD couPLe sLippers beFore ok? dun bLame mE fOr beIng irrationally eXcited oVer sLippers.. aNw tHese fEw dAys haS beEN haRd on kEl... cOs i've haD tOo mUch jApanese fOod over the last week sO wE've been having westErn consecutively fOr.. mm.. ok nVm.. aNdoh we tRied oRganiC cAfe.. haha theiR fOod tAsted beTter tHan i tOt.. aNw gUess kEl's sIck of wEsTern aLready cOs he usually haS vEry little opinions on ouR dIning choiceS bUt tHis tIme he aSked wHether we caN haVe jApaneSe.. haha *patpat*


















bAck! HokkAidO wAs sO fUn i rEAlly dIdn waNt tO come baCk... tHis is a fIrst! usuaLLy
i lOng tO gO hOme dUring tRips.. bUt hOkkaIdo wAS a wHole dIfferEnt sTory.. tHe aIr is gD, tHe fOod is gD, ppl aRe nIce & fUnny (generAlly), tHe sCeneRy is gOod, sHiseido, kOse & bRands uNder tHem flooD sHelves aT sHopping cENtres, convEnience sTores & dRug sTores.. aNd tHey aRe mUch cHeaper tHan in SG.. Fancl pRoducts sEll fOr 1/2 the pRice in SG! tell me.. wHat is tHere nOt tO likE? i wAnna mIgraTE tO hOkkaidO & be a fArmer's wIfe! *dREaming*

tOok 505 pics... gonna taKe a lOng tIme tO arraNGe.. oh ya! neaRLy fOrgot.. onE of the hoTEls we sTayed in wAS besidE RAmen sTreet & aJacent tO waT thE tOur leADer dEscribed aS tHeir rED-lighT dIstrict (mini red light district perphaps?) & fOr aUdrey & kel's benefit (i promisEd aUdrey tO cHeck sOme tHings out & i pRomiseD kEL i'll brIng hIm a jApanese babE hOme), i wEnt pRowling all tHe sUrrounding sTreets tO taKe piCs.. nOThing sENsational tHou.. bUt i hAd tO tAKe piCs of tHe pimps on tHe sly but its fUn! haha!

aNw, sTory tIme.. :)

RED MARBLES

I was at the corner grocery store buying some early potatoes.

I noticed a small boy, delicate of bone and feature, ragged but clean, hungrily apprizing a basket of freshly picked green peas.

I paid for my potatoes, but was also drawn to the display of fresh green peas.

I am a pushover for creamed peas and new potatoes. Pondering the peas, I couldn't help overhearing the conversation between Mr. Miller (the store owner) and the ragged boy next to me.

'Hello Barry, how are you today?'

'H'lo, Mr. Miller. Fine, thank ya. Jus' admirin' them peas. They sure look good.'

'They are good, Barry. How's your Ma?'

'Fine. Gittin' stronger alla' time.'

'Good. Anything I can help you with?'

'No, Sir. Jus' admirin' them peas.'

'Would you like take some home?' asked Mr. Miller.

'No, Sir. Got nuthin' to pay for 'em with.'

'Well, what have you to trade me for some of those peas?'

'All I got's my prize marble here.'

'Is that right? Let me see it' said Miller.

'Here 'tis. She's a dandy.'

'I can see that. Hmmmmm, only thing is this one is blue and I sort of go for red. Do you have a red one like this at home?' the store owner asked.

'Not zackley but almost.'

'Tell you what. Take this sack of peas home with you and next trip this way let me look at that red marble', Mr. Miller told the boy.

'Sure will. Thanks Mr. Miller.'

Mrs. Miller, who had been standing nearby, came over to help me.

With a smile said, 'There are two other boys like him in our community, all three are in very poor circumstances. Jim just loves to bargain with them for peas, apples, tomatoes, or whatever.

When they come back with their red marbles, and they always do, he decides he doesn't like red after all and he sends them home with a bag of produce for a green marble or an orange one, when they come on their next trip to the store.'

I left the store smiling to myself, impressed with this man.

A short time later I moved to Colorado , but I never forgot the story of this man, the boys, and their bartering for marbles.

Several years went by, each more rapid than the previous one.

Just recently I had occasion to visit some old friends in that Idaho community and while I was there learned that Mr. Miller had died.

They were having his visitation that evening and knowing my friends wanted to go, I agreed to accompany them.

Upon arrival at the mortuary we fell into line to meet the relatives of the deceased and to offer whatever words of comfort we could.

Ahead of us in line were three young men.

One was in an army uniform and the other two wore nice haircuts, dark suits and white shirts...all very professional looking.

They approached Mrs. Miller, standing composed and smiling by her husband's casket.

Each of the young men hugged her, kissed her on the cheek, spoke briefly with her and moved on to the casket.

Her misty light blue eyes followed them as, one by one, each young man stopped briefly and placed his own warm hand over the cold pale hand in the casket.

Each left the mortuary awkwardly, wiping his eyes.

Our turn came to meet Mrs. Miller. I told her who I was and reminded her of the story from those many years ago and what she had told me about her husband's bartering for marbles.

With her eyes glistening, she took my hand and led me to the casket.

'Those three young men who just left were the boys I told you about. They just told me how they appreciated the things Jim 'traded' them.

Now, at last, when Jim could not change his mind about color or size....they came to pay their debt.'

'We've never had a great deal of the wealth of this world,' she confided, 'but right now, Jim would consider himself the richest man in Idaho '.

With loving gentleness she lifted the lifeless fingers of her deceased husband. Resting underneath were three exquisitely shined red marbles.

The Moral : We will not be remembered by our words, but by our kind deeds. Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath.

Today I wish you a day of ordinary miracles ~ A fresh pot of coffee you didn't make yourself.

An unexpected phone call from an old friend.

Green stoplights on your way to work.

The fastest line at the grocery store.

A good sing-along song on the radio.

Your keys found right where you left them.





pRObably mY laSt posT beFore i dIsappEar fOr 7 daYs.. kEL pRomised mE a hand wRitten leTTer fOr eVeryday i'm nOt in singaPore.. *aHem* i wLdn fOrgeT tHAt... haha.. aNw hErE aRe SOme picS.. eCh of tHEm rEmind mE of dIfferEnt ppl (i'm nOt tellin wHo), dIfferent paRts of mY life.. vEry well wRitten..





aNd tHe one bElow, is mY fAv.. it wAS on a bus...






aTtended kel's fren's poolsIde ROM ceRemonY + luncH @ Grand Mercure Roxy Hotel.. tHE wHOle cEremonY wAs cONduCted in cHinese.. vEry intEResting.. haha.. bUt its a gOod idEA tO conduct it aT tHe pOolsIde.. rATher pRetty sEtting bUt i cAn teLL tHE bRide is fEeling fREaking wARm.. sHe kEpt comPlaining sHe's wArm.. haha bUt pRetty dRess, pREtty haIR, haNg in tHere baBe! haha...

bRide, gRoom, gUest & nIce fLowers :)

tHere aRE maNy wItneSses tO tHe pROmises oNe maKes on hIs/heR wEdding dAy.. bUt hoW maNy ppl rEAlly kEep tHe prOmiSes he/she maDe opEnly oN tHat daY?

lATer, wE weRe bOred aNd i meNtioned i haVen reAlly sTEpped inTo wEst cOast pARk sO we wEnt tHere.. in tHe blaZing sUn, wE lOoked liKe tWO idiOts w mE in a dREss & hIm in long sLeevEd sHirt... mE aNd mY cRazy idEAs..


dEcidED nOt tO bE sTUpid sO we dId sOmething mOre sTUpid... tOok pHotos uNder sOme tRees aNd leFt tHe plaCe.. lOok, kEl sEems tO haV cAmo-paint oN hIs fAce hoR? aH.. nS dAys.. haha...



fInally! wHat i've beEn waNting tO dO... Guiness sTout fLoat! wOo~ its gOod lo! eVen kEl aGreEd.. gUineSs sTout w gUiness sTout iCe crEAm w cHocolATe cHips.. aH... hEAven..