没怎么了.. 大概都是这样的.. 累了。。 i neeD tO gO jOgging aGain.. i'm a libra... bUt it seems like i cAn nevEr stRike a balanCe wHen it cOmes tO matterS tHat really maTter tO me.. i cAn balanCe balAnce sHeets.. tens oF tHEm.. tHousaNds of tHEm.. bUt i cAN't balanCE anything tHAt dOesn cOme in nuMbers.. i dUn evEn come cLose..
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tHanKs tO a 野蛮女友's eX-trainEE/mOst wortHy oPponeNt in mInesWeeper.. fOr advice on balanCing nOn-numerIcaL itEMs.. i will 加油的。。 "jUst exeRcIse ur RIGHTS!" hAha.. yes.. maYbe i jUst nEed mOre cOuraGe..
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不要骗我。。已经裂成这么多碎片的心。。我刚刚才拼回。。不要骗我。。好吗？
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其实，我很想问你。。在你心里，我及格吗？我那里做得不够好？你那一天会以我为荣? if i asK u, wLd u teLL me? gIve me a sCore.. uPon 100.. i'M sOrry i neEd u tO gIve me a nUmber in something unquantifiable.. bUt still.. would i pAss?






WHAT MATTERS MOST

You don't actually have to take the quiz. Just read straight through, and you'll get the point, an awesome one. .....

Take this quiz:
1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America contest.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winners for best actor actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.
How did you do?

The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are
no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields.
But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Achievements are forgotten.
Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.


Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:
1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel, appreciated and special.
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.
6. Name half a dozen heroes whose stories have inspired you. Easier?


The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not
the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care.
Pass this on to those people who have made a difference in your life.





iT wAs oVerwHelming.. tHE amT of eMotions, i mEan.. i sAw tEars.. oBligaTory oR rEal.. i sAW cOnfUsion.. i sAw sUpreSsed emOtions.. i saW indIffereNce.. aNd pUre gRief.. iF eVery eMotion wAs a cOlour, nO.. it wASn cOlourful.. it wAs bLood rEd, bLue-gRey aNd dArk gRey aLL mIxed tOgetHer.. i wAn tO sIt beSIde hEr fOr the laSt tIme aNd hOld hEr haNd.. sHe sHld b aBle tO undERsTand me nOw rIght? my eNg, my mandRin, mY cAntonese.. i wAN tO tell heR wHat i've aLways wAnteD tO tell heR bUt cOuldn puT it aCross.. a fRen usEd tO alwayS sAy "life is too short for hates" i think life is too short for regrets..

原来人死了，不过就这样。。 一把火，没了。。:(

wEnt fOr a long joG tO fEnd off neGatiVE vIbes.. i'm kiNda eVil.. i fInd excusEs wHen HE asks me tO gO jOg w hIm bUt i gO rUnning mysElf.. :p sTress leH! jOgging w an ex-trACker.. bOo.. bUt.. jOgging is gOod.. eSp wHen u maNage tO wOrk up a HUGE amT of sWeat.. plUs 80 cRunches after tHat.. yUpz i jUst loVe tO tOrture mYselF. wAts wRong w tHat? fEeling negAtivE? gO jOg! gO gO gO!!!


p/s: sTories sOon..







gIrl's mUmmy: gIrl ar, laTer mUSt reM tO cRy oK?
gIrl: oRh..
gIrl's mUmmy: rEmembER ar!

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tHE gIrl wAs 5 tHAt yeAR.. tOday, sHe's 22. sHe cRies on cuE at the "rIght" oCCasions. i cAll hEr pHoneY.. oThers sAy sHe dOes thE rIght tHings aT tHe rIght tIme.. tHats bEing 'gRown uP'.. wHat dO u tHink?







dEAth cOmes wHen yOU leAst exPEct it..
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gRandma,hOw dOes heAven lOok lIke?
dID u see aNgels?
weRE tHEy pREtty?
wiLL u bRing me aRounD wHen i gEt tHere?
wiLL wE gEt paSt oUr laNGuage baRRier in hEaven?
wiLL u brIng me tO see gRandpa wHen i gET there?
cAn i aSk hIm fOR cHocolaTe wafErs likE i uSed tO?
cAn u cOok fOR me aGain wHen i gEt thErE?
ur cHicken cUrry aNd noNya kUehs?
bEfOre i sEE u aGain u'll b hAppy in heAven wLdn u?.
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gRandma,hOw dOes heAven lOok lIke?
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Valentine Roses

A touching story.......


Red roses were her favorites, her name was also Rose.
And every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows.
The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door.
The card said, "Be my Valentine," like all the years before.



Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say,
"I love you even more this year, than last year on this day."
"My love for you will always grow, with every passing year."
She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.



She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away.
He always liked to do things early, way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.



She trimmed the stems, and placed them in a very special vase.
Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.
She would sit for hours, in her husband's favorite chair.
While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there.



A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate.
With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate.
Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before,
The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door

She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.
The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,
Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?



"I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago,"
The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know."
"The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance."
"Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance."

"There is a standing order, that I have on file down here,
And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year.
There also is another thing, that I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card...he did this years ago."



"Then, should ever, I find out that he's no longer here,
That's the card...that should be sent, to you the following year."
She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard.
Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote...
"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone,
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome."



"I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife."

"You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need.
I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years."

"When you get these roses, think of all the happiness,
That we had together, and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and I know I always will.
But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still."



"Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days.
I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.
The roses will come every year, and they will only stop,
When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock."

"He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt,
To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him,
And place the roses where we are, together once again."


幸福提示 14: 能一起慢慢变老，坐在摇椅谈谈往事，喝喝咖啡，分享刚读过的好书。。 这，就是最大的幸福。。







sOmehow i wIsh liArs cAn b sMarter in cOvering tHeir tRacks.. oR maybe i sHld blaMe myselF fOr it.. i wIsh i wAsn tHat aPt at fInding lOophoLes.. acTually i wAsn eVen FINDING looPholeS.. tHey weRe stAring aT me in e fAce..

*hUrt*..

tHere iSn a hOnest sOul leFt in tHis gOddAmn cOld, vIcious wOrld..

lie tO me, eXploit of mE, gO aHead aNd taKe advAntage of mY stUpidity.. but i'm nOt THAT sTupid! lie tO me if u aRe sMarter tHan me aNd dO a gOod jOb kEeping it fRom me!
it tAkes a gOod memOry aNd a gOod bRain tO lie.. iF u cAN't mK tHe cUt, dUn lie..
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iF it tAkes cOuraGE tO lOve, it tAkes cOurage tO tRust.. iF it taKes cOUrage tO tRUst, it tAkes cOurage tO live.. sImilaRly, it tAkes couragE tO dIe.. eNuf is eNuf.. fOr thE paSt yR, i haVen beEN abLe tO sTand tHAt gIrl in tHe mirrOr.. sHe's a wEakling.. sHe's nOt sUpergIrl anYmOre.. i'M gOnna cHase hER aWay.. bRing sUpergIrl baCk.. bYe wEakling.. bYe..





梁静茹 - 勇气
词:光良 曲:瑞业

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你


爱一个人，需要很多很多的勇气。。我可以在很多很多 situations 面前很坚强，你不会看到我为什么事掉眼泪。。bUt in tHe fAce of loVe, 我却什么都怕。。oNce read tHis cOnversaTion in sOme nOvel:

X: so u think by not loving anyone u've got ur heart safe isn't it?
Y: duh!
X: and u've got it bundled in a bullet proof vest too huh?
Y: u've got it.. and a suit of armour on top of that as well, man!

sO cUte.. haha... Mitch Albom oncE wRote "if u wAnt gUrantees, kid; get a tOaster!" haha..

爱真的需要勇气希望你不会忽然说要放弃.. i bElieVE u wLdn.. u're wOrth my tRust rIght?

幸福提示 13: 和心爱的人吃饭，吃着吃着，他突然说，“Dear, 我爱你”。 这就是幸福。。:)





"Can I see my baby?" the happy new mother asked. When the bundle was nestled in her arms and she moved the fold of cloth to look upon his tiny face, she gasped. The doctor turned quickly and looked out the tall hospital window.

The baby had been born without ears. Time proved that the baby's hearing was perfect. It was only his appearance that was marred. When he rushed home from school one day and flung himself into his mother's arms, she sighed, knowing that his life was to be a succession of heartbreaks. He blurted out the tragedy. "A boy, a big boy...called me a freak."

He grew up, handsome for his misfortune. A favorite with his fellow students, he might have been class president, but for that. He developed a gift, a talent for literature and music. "But you might mingle with other young people," his mother reproved him, but felt a kindness in her heart.

The boy's father had a session with the family physician..."Could nothing be done?" "I believe I could graft on a pair of outer ears, if they could be procured" the doctor decided. Whereupon the search began for a person who would make such a sacrifice for a young man.

Two years went by. One day, his father said to the son, "You're going to the hospital, son. Mother and I have someone who will donate the ears you need. But it's a secret," said the father. The
operation was a brilliant success, and a new person emerged. His talents blossomed into genius, and school and college became a series of triumphs.

Later he married and led the diplomatic service. One day, he asked his father, "Who gave me the ears? Who gave me so much? I could never do enough for him or her." "I do not believe you could, "said the father, "but the agreement was that you are not to know...not yet." The years kept their profound secret, but the day did come. One of the darkest days that ever pass through a son. He stood with his father over his mother's casket. Slowly, tenderly, the father stretched forth a hand and raised the thick, reddish-brown hair to reveal the mother had no outer ears. "Mother said she was glad she never let her hair be cut," his father whispered gently, "and nobody ever thought mother less beautiful, did they"?

REMEMBER...

Real treasure lies not in what can be seen, but what cannot be seen. Real love lies not in what is done and known, but in what that is done but not known. Love sometimes no need to say much.

Read the following, it's meaningful If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the lost for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than to our family, an unwise investment indeed.

FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER,
(I) (L)OVE (Y) OU



tHe oppOsite of lOve, is nOt hAte.. itS indIfferencE.. if i sTill wOrry fOr u, sTill wArm up uR fOod fOr u, sTill reMembeR tO rEmind bRo tO leAve dInner fOr u, sTill fRown uPon uR tHis anD tHat, sTill iRon ur cLothes fOr u, eVen thOugh i dUn wAn u tO kNow tHese, i tHink i sTill cAre aFterall.. AftEr all tHese yRS, sOmehOw i sTill reMember tHat pRomise i mADe tHAt nIght.. i wAs 5 tHat yeAr.. i lEaned oVer tO tHe fRont sEat in tHe cAr, kIssed hIm on tHe cHeeks aNd sAid..

"i'll tAke caRe of u fOrevEr, dAddy, i pRomise!"

i pRomised.. aNd i'll kEep tHAt pRomise.. i wOuld gIve u my eArs tOo.. if u eVer neEd tHem.. bUt i'll pRobably nOt let u kNow tHAt.. dUn aSk me y.. i dUn knOw.. i reAlly dUn.. wEird.. sInce wHen dId sOmeone haVE tO strIke a bAlance bTwn sHowing aFFections aNd aLoofness? yOu cOnfUse yOurseLf, Jasmine.. yOu reAlly dO..

bUddy, "Anything just call me.. dun keep your problems to yourself.. you're not superwoman.."
me, "I'm not superwoman.. i'm supergirl! haha.."
buDDy, "supergirl haven't grow up leh..."
me, "..."





tHis sTory is sO sAD!!! :(

"hUg mE aS if itS e lASt tIme u'rE hUgging me*



Speeding

(A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle)
Girl: Slow down
down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its so scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
(Girl hugs him)
Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me.

In the papers the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him, felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it meant he would die.





rEAd tHe sUnday tImes? (120807) tHere's an aRTicle tHat tells us WHY we fAll in love.. its pREtty interesting.. bUt roMantics out tHere mIght wAnt tO sKip tHis article.. it wldN appeAl tO u..

oPposite Astons @ EC Road (higHly reComAnded by Amy & many otHers) aNd fUrther dOwn, liEs..



tHE sAshimi wAs gOod.. tHE ice cReam & sHerbet wAS betTer.. bUt.. tHe cOmpany wAs tHe beSt.. :)

幸福提示 12：一个很紧很紧的拥抱就是幸福。。 :)

"两个人一起努力寻找幸福，就一定能找得到。。 你一定要幸福。。" 对我说这番话的是谁，就祝谁幸福。。如果我的笑容换来你的眼泪，对不起。。

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"I observed the woman i had been until then: weak but trying to give the impression of strength. Fearful of everything but telling herself it wasn't fear - it was the wisdom of someone who knew what reality was. Putting up shutters in front of windows to keep the joy of the sun from entering - just so the sun's rays wouldn't fade my old furniture. Trying to judge her future loves by the rules of her past suffering.

But love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice, or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand new situation. Love can consign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existance. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack the courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life. We have to take love where we find it, even if that means hours, days, weeks of disappointment and sadness.

The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us. And to save us."

(By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept) - Paulo Coelho







pERphaps pERpHaps perPhAps..

cAN loVe aND life be aS sImple as i want it to be? cAN haPPiness sTay?
can i oNe day haVE tHe hAppy faMily i'vE alwAys wanTed? or is tHAt a fairy tAle tOo? cAring daDDy and mUmmy, haPpy kids.. maYBe its jUst a faIry tale bUt if.. jusT if.. if i belieVE in it.. will it cOme trUE?

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aNw i've finally bOught the last of Paulo Coelho's sequel.. to be exact, i finally bought the 1st book -_- yeah... its good.. as usual.. Paulo Coelho can't go wrong..

"You're upset," he said at point.
Yes, my mind was wandering. I wished there was someone who could bring peace to my heart - someone with whom I could spend a little time without being afraid that I would lose him the next day.

(By the river piedra i sat down and wept) - Paulo Coelho





"but how do u do it mum? how did u and dad manage to stay together for so many years? don't u get bored of ech other?"

"thats simple my dear, all u hav to do is to keep falling in love w the same person"

(Man and Wife) - Tony Parson



falling in love w the same person... does it take a lot? i hope not..

wHen does someone feel liKE tHey are part of u?

谢谢你的承诺。。 谢谢你的坦白。。
谢谢你让我决定再相信承诺。。 谢谢你让我再相信。。

thanks fOr nOt lying.. not mentioning "fOreVer" cos thats a blatant lie.. u dUnno how much it means tO have beside me, someone who doesn lie.. someone whos's frank enough.. thats wat i believe u are.. pls dun disappoint me..





This story is pretty special to me.. My OBS instructor printed this for my OBS gp b4 we left the island.. with a personalised message for each of us too.. the camp (aNd how i gOt involoved), team work with my camp mates from different JC and leadership backgrounds, the on site and off site camping, kayaking in the thunderstorm, hiking with injuries and injured friends, interaction with a great leader and an even better mentor, overcoming fears.. all these and more.. together with this story, has inspired me in more ways than one and it has changed my approach to life.. will it change urs too? :) if it does, i hope its in a good way.. enjoy..



"Everything happens for a reason"

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there... to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower or heart.

Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck.

Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity..... all occurs to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere, safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things.

Make every day count.

Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen.

Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.

Hold your head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you.

Create your own life and then go out and live it..

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幸福提示 11: 拥有撒娇的权利，爱人的勇气，已经是莫大的幸福。。





A boy walked into a CD store and saw a girl behind the counter.

She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there.

He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it.

"Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again.

He nodded and she went to the back.

She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.

So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did
everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it
wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...

!!!RRRRRING!!!

The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?"

It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don't
know? He passed away yesterday...

" The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother
went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she
would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she
picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The
mother picked it up and started to read it.

It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out with me? Love, Jacelyn

The mother opened another CD...

Again there was a piece of paper. It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out
with me? Love, Jacelyn



OF ALL WORDS, THE SADDEST ARE THOSE "IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN"