fOund! 南方二重唱's 重温。细说往事 CD! mAn.. call me LKK (lao kok kok) if you want to, but these olDies aRE FABULASO! esP the sOngs in dIsc 2.. *陶醉*

mY fAce is sTarting tO pEel! i lOok likE a monsTer! aNd i'm mEeting a BIGGIE client on fRiday! yIkes!!! either i pEel all the flakie parTs mYself or i rIsk looking like.. i dunno what on fRi and scare tHe hEll out of one of my bIggest clienT sO far... tAlking abOut wK, lAst month's reSults wEre better tHan i expected.. :) but i've been slacking e last wk of feb and the 1st wk of mar.. if this fRi goes well i might be able to see my face on the charts again.. i'd better bUck up! afTer slacking for 2 wks, i grudgingly went baCk to office yesT cos of the co meeting.. even then, i was late for a good half an hour somemore..

on the waY, i tot abt why i was slacking.. i realised that the idEA that when i hav biz, i can buy moRE toscano bag bags no longer motivate me.. dun get me wrong! i dun hav a lot of expensive baggies neither do i hav tons of biz.. but these 2 wks i haven been able to motivate myself to wk.. but after the monthly meeting, having seen my face on the slides and on the wall in the office, i realised i'm not after the money.. i'm after recognition.. i feel demotivated because in the short run, no clients will thank me for having planed well for him or something like that.. not in the short run.. but in the long run , when they need the cash and i knw where and how to get cold hard cash out for them and when they see themselves retiring with less worries than others, MAYBE i'll be appreciated.. sometimes i wonder whether i'm in the wrong line.. i think i'll be happier in social wk or something.. but then again i like to dabble with econs stuff and money stuff.. so maybe i'm in the right line afterall! haha.. it is really tough for the 1st yr.. many ppl are still unsure of what we do and keep branding us as insurance agents which i abhor! if i want to sell insurance i will join insurance companies man.. they pay so much better ok? sigh.. i claim to have it tough.. but i know my seniors, the pioneers of this industry have it worse! my mentor studied so much, in relatively prestigious unis no less, to wk here.. and still suffers the same fate as us - being branded as insurance agents once in a while.. haha.. but she's doing well.. very well in fact.. someone sitting behind me in the meeting whispered (quite loudly) "pls la with sales like her's who cares what clients call you?" lol.. to each his own i guess.. but the next person who calls me insurance agent will get it from me. honest. *bish* (kidding ok?)

oh i've got tO say this.. my boSs is really nIce.. he left a book in mY locker with a note "For you to keep" its a book on motivation aNd how not to let failure affect you and blah blah blah.. maybe he noticed my inactivity these 2 wks! ops..=x