Sunday, 23 November 2008 ;
13:46
wAS veRy haPpy thE pASt fEw dAys.. beEn prAwning, pOoling, fIsh sPa-ing, cOffee-ing, meETing up w old fRens, etc.. bUt aM nOw vEry upsEt.. :( nO idEA wHy thingS are sO cOmplicAted.. oR aM i THe oNE wHO tHinks tOO simplistically? wHy bOther abt wAt oThers sAY?wHy botHer abt wHat otHErs' tHink? aM i tOo dAring oR aRe u tOo tImid?
eYes aRE pretty sWollen fRom cRying.. sO tIred.. i'm paSt cAring abT hOw sTrangErs sEe me.. bUt u'rE mOre tHan tWice mY aGe aNd u sTill cAre.. y? aNd its nOt even aBt u..
aNd itS nOt jUSt lASt nIght's dRAma.. bUt eVerything tHAt has haPPened maDe me cRave liVing on my oWn.. i sO badly wAnt tHAt.. sO badly wAnt tO gO awaY.. for a lOng tIme.. i did mY beSt. bUt mY bEst is nOt enoUgh.. mAybe i reALLY shld gO awaY..
aM alSo doubting mY cHoice of cAreer eVen b4 i sTart.. wHo knOws wAt tHe fuTUre holds? tO tAke tHis gAmble or nOt? jiu jiu sAys tHe beSt or nOthing. tOp 5 in a list of 20 is not good enuf.. tHe best is IPP.. sO shld i eVn tRY jUmping? i alr hav frens heRe.. nOrmal 9-5 job oR tHis? i haven even stArted aNd i'm wOrrying..
oR sO sHe sAys..-
Kaiyan