went for a malay excolleague'e wedding yest.. it was interesting.. have never been to one.. kel & i used this wedding to make public our r/sp tO the eX colleaGUes aNd cLear tHings up abOut sMall cAp sTock aNd mE.. its a good thing.. but we were both very nervous.. we wonder how others would perceive us.. of cOs ppl wEre sHocked/surPrised.. tHankfully tHe nIcer aunties & uncLes weRe tHere.. nOt tHose tHat aRe knOwn tO sPread gOssip & tWist fACts...

but what came out of this eVent was e acceptance on my part that a certain friendship has soured and worn thin overtime.. its disheartening to know that when you're at your most vulnerable, ur close friend takes your problem lightly and brushes you off but when he has problems, he thinks that you should be there cos his problem is such a big issue.. i have been & i am still very willing to be there for this friend if he has problems but i feel that i'm increasingly being taken for granted.. this friendship is tiring me out.. and make things worse, i received a tongue lashing from him at night.. all along i tot he understood me.. i didn mean to allow issues to stay in the gray area. i didn have the heart to correct it & i didn know how to. he used to tell me i'm picky about guys.. i dun deny that.. den he starting calling me a flirt.. fine i can live with it.. and now he used the word slutty.. this coming from a close friend really hurts. randomly dating around does not make me a flirt. even if he wants to brand my behavior as being flirty i can live with it.. its not like i went out of my way to seduce guys to date me.. please.. i have better things to do.. but slut is a very strong word... i date around, not sleep around.. label me picky or a flirt if u must stick labels on me but i can't accept "slut". where did my old supportive friend go? perphaps he still cared.. else he wouldn have called back to ask how things went.. but it didn give me comfort that he labelled me thus.. he wasn the only one who felt disappointment in our friendship.. sIghz.. kel made me promise not to think too much... i can't hlp it.. he doesn know abOut this naMe calling thing.. oNe dAy intO hiS 1 wK reServisT & i miss him alReady..
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aNw enouGh aBout unhappY sTuff.. dunnO y i'm blogging about eVerything except the hokkAido tRip.. maybe laTer... i'm tOo hAppy w mY nEw hEels & oUr nEw cOuple sLippErs! haha.. neVer haD couPLe sLippers beFore ok? dun bLame mE fOr beIng irrationally eXcited oVer sLippers.. aNw tHese fEw dAys haS beEN haRd on kEl... cOs i've haD tOo mUch jApanese fOod over the last week sO wE've been having westErn consecutively fOr.. mm.. ok nVm.. aNdoh we tRied oRganiC cAfe.. haha theiR fOod tAsted beTter tHan i tOt.. aNw gUess kEl's sIck of wEsTern aLready cOs he usually haS vEry little opinions on ouR dIning choiceS bUt tHis tIme he aSked wHether we caN haVe jApaneSe.. haha *patpat*