Thursday, 26 June 2008 ;
13:12
sMtG tHAt mUmmy saId laSt nIght maDe me tHink.. aNd i reALised tHat in eVeRy asPect of mY life, i've bEen a sOrt of a cOward.. i've seTTled fOr 2nD beSt wHen all i neEd waS a lAst burSt of COurage tO puSH me tO rEach wHat i wANt. i aLways gIve up.. in lOve, in aMbitions.. i aLways try sO haRd & eNd up gIving up wHen i'm sO cLose tO waT i waNt.. settling fOr 2nd bEst...
mY life is litterEd witH wASted opporTUnities..aNd laSt nIght jUst beFOre i zzz, i sUddenly haD aN uRge tO gIVe hIm up.. i've neVer haD a gOod reCord at commitmeNts.. caLL it fEAr or aNYthing u like.. i dUn wan tO mAKe hIm unhAppy.. bUt i reALLy can't dO tHis commitmeNt tHing.. like meEting paRents, gOing tO faMily gaTherings.. sIghz.. i caN dO tHe eVent itselF... its tHe impression tHAt i'm gOing tO cHop + sTamp commit tHat i cAN't haNdle.. wHats wRong w me? :( i sUddenlY cRAve being sIngle.. aNd i haTe mYself likE tHAt.. i haTe it! i hAte it! i hAte it!
lOve is gIving someoNe tHe cHance tO hURt you, bUt tRust thAt he woulDN...
oR sO sHe sAys..-
Kaiyan