Wednesday, 13 February 2008 ;
23:20
i'm fReaked.. rEAlly fREaked.. a cOusin of mIne, my aGe or 2-3 yrs older.. has cAncer.. sHe's a tEAcher, an aThelete, a reAlly active, frienDly aNd preTty laDy.. i've nEver oNce sPoken tO heR in mY entire liFe.. bUt i dUn dislike hEr.. bUt the tHing is.. sHe's in the tErminaL sTage of cOlon cancEr anD it haS lOng sPread aLL over hEr body! nO pAin nO nOthing aNd sUddenly, WHAM! canCer??! sHe's sO younG! eVen tHe dOctors wEre fReaked tO see hEr bOdy FULL of cAncer cells.. nO orGans weRe sPAred.. except fOr a sMall paRt of hEr liVer.. 20+.. aNd tHAts all to her life? its tRue that its nOT the years in uR life bUt the life in ur yeArs that matters... bUt 20 odd yRs only? isn it a little sHort? eVen thOu i dun kNow her aT all (almost) i dun evEn know her nAme, bUt its a cRuel tHing to happen tO anyoNe..
sHe's stArting treAtment fR nxt wK.. sHe doeSn knOw the sEriousnEss of it yeT.. i wOnder wHether sHe wlD cHange her mind abT undergOing tREatment if sHe knOws tHe full sTory of heR caSe.. iF its me (tOUchwOod!) i'll cHoose NOT to undergo tREatment.. i'll sPend the rEst of my timE dOing wHat i wAnt tO dO.. tRavel, voLunteer, dAnce, caTch up w fRens, tHrow a fArewell pARty, settle mY pERsonal maTters.. i'll tell the pple i love that i love them.. i'll hug the pple i wan to hug.. aNd i waNt tO sPend my laSt mOments iN tHe aRms of tHe perSOn i lOve tHe mOst in tHis wOrld.. nO prIzes fOr gUEssing wHo...
没有丑的存在，怎么知道什么是美？没有死神的威胁，怎么知道生命的可贵？
oR sO sHe sAys..-
Kaiyan